One week later, it hurts, I'm scared, and I'm sitting with it
It’s been a week since my surgery. Not my first, actually, my fourth. I don’t know if surgeries are like childbirth, if our brains release some magical hormone that makes us forget how painful it all really is…How completely useless we become. Like, for real! I made a choice. A choice for my health. Because the prolapse was taking up too much space in my life. But right now? The surgery feels more disabling than the prolapse ever did. Some moments are a bit better than others, a bit less painful... but overall, let’s call it what it is: I’m fucking bedridden. Just think about that for a second. You make the decision to get surgery because something feels off, uncomfortable, maybe even unbearable. And then, boom! You’re stuck in bed, hoping you’ll be able to breathe some fresh air on the balcony for five damn minutes. If I walk around my own house for more than ten minutes, my body punishes me for the next 24 hours. And that hits hard. It hits everything . So what are my options here? O...